the art of procrasination

if anyone has mastered it.
it is definitely i.
seriously.
i win.
by large.
and by far.
hahahahahahah
but really, it isn't a laughing matter, yet i manage to find humour in any given situation.
so i minus well laugh and enjoy the euphoric moment while it lasts. hahahahha

so texas was interesting.
seriously.
it opened up my eyes and made me see who people really are.
when you are spending more than 24 hours with another human being, their true colours really do show.

texas was a lot of fun. and i got a lot of good water time.
but there are just some people i cannot stand. i can get along with them. but by choice i would not want to spend another entire week with them. lol
there is a clear difference.

anyways . . . i should probably work on my assignment and finish it.

I am now officially employed!

i Hannah Kim, have been hired by La Cite Models and Talent Agency Inc..
how great is that?
i am a part-time model and talent scout! HAHAHA
i LOVE IT!
i get logged for 16hours a week but really i just need to find 120 leads a week.
i start after i get back from texas.
Finally a job with flexible hours!
whats funnier is that my manager wants me to consider modelling/commercial work hahaha "asians are in high demand, and you have a great height"
but really, its tempting because the agency would pay for all photos for my portfolio since i dont have one, but its still risky buisness.... if you let the agency pay for your stuff they eat 25% instead of just the normal 10%....but in the end you'd still be making a lot of money - if you can find work that is! lol
Either way, i strangely managed to get my foot in [the door] the entertainment industry! lol

i'm off to texas in 2 hours!

a lot of things that i wish i could be...

a lot of things that i wish i can be.
there are a lot of areas of life i want to pursue.
but you know that saying?
"if you try to hunt two rabbits you'll lose them both"
well its like i'm trying to hunt a hundred rabbits and i really am losing them all.
its like when you try to grab a fist full of sand, it all slips away.
i need to find an area that i'll be truly happe completely focusing on.
i need to find something that i'm totally in love with.
100% obsessed with.
chasing more than one "rabbit" leave you soo incredibly scatter brained.

me, afifa and azieb. aww this is a horribly cute picture....lol meaning, its a bad picture of us that still managed to look good! hahaha i dont think it makes sense...but whatever, this was taken last thursday at tonic night club hahah where we only stayed for an hour. lol thursdays are our girls night in/our, consisting of doing our nails in my room, watching o.c. and just plenty of girl chill time! :) 

stress at its best...

im incredibly stressed out.
for no apparent reason.
my skin is breaking out like mad because of this.
this sucks.
i feel like garbage.
school disgusts me.
i feel like crying.
or sleeping forever.
technically that'd be death.
how morbid.
im on the verge of misery.
school IS misery.
i am miserable.
now that i've finally established my misery...
what the heck am i going to do abou it?
.
.
.
not a whole freakin lot.
here's to midterms.
boo-freakin-hoo!

Where have I been the last couple of days?

why is it that i'm once again soooo incredibly screwed for my exam tomorrow?
i seriously must have written hundreds and hundreds of exams in my life and i've still managed to escape the studying part that should happen pre-examination.
i really do wonder how got where i am.
how am i still in school?
SERIOUSLY.
this boggles my mind.
i know i dont deserve to be in school.
and i dont deserve to be passing or get the grades that i get.
i'm too damn good at wasting time.
it's disgusting.
we'll see how this exam goes, but the thing is i NEVER learn my lesson....
because things always end up okay.
okay is something i've accepted.
but really i should be wanted EXCELLENT.
or PERFECT.
but i've become too comfortable with just being okay.
this sucks.
i wish i was seriously a nerd.
i am a nerd.
just one who doesn't know what it really means to study.
oh shame!

Me, myself and i. 

perhaps we're all a bunch of bloody impalas

The African impala can jump to a height of more than 10 feet and cover a distance of more than 30 feet. Yet they can be kept in an enclosure in any zoo with a three-foot wall. Impalas will not jump if they cannot see where their feet will fall. Faith is the ability to trust what we cannot see, and with faith we are freed from the flimsy enclosures of life that only fear allows.

"I had to get out of the boat to walk on water"- JAY-Z (Diamonds are Forever)

we all need to get out of that damn boat.
everything is so freakin grey.
things need to be black and white.
maybe is never an answer.
to not know is unjust.
who's to say what's just?
yes or no.
no more sitting on the fence garbage.

anyone else sick of the world's bull-bile? (aka b.s.)

Another useless day...

no, im not a pessimist, or a cynic.
but today was the most unproductive day EVER!
at least my weekend has already started...
but i definitely have a midterm on monday.
have i started studying?
definitely not.
wow.
why am i so freaking amazing?
if i wasn't me, i'd definitely be my best friend.